Hey, I know it's been a long time.
I'm finishing up another semester at Utah State.
I'm currently cramming my brain with art pieces, dates, locations, and everything else possible to memorize for my Art History final.
My major is lovely. I absoultely enjoy it.
My professors have been great for the most part and I've loved most of my projects too.
My favorite course, was my computers class, where I learned in depth the Adobe Suite.
I loved learning the software and doing projects that I got great feedback on.
Life is good.
I am going home this weekend, to finally take a break from school and enjoy this Christmas season.
I am excited to snuggle up with my family, watch movies and sit by the fire.
I am excited to read the story of Christ's birth and keep him in my heart.
I went to a missionary prep course at church yesterday.
My heart is pulling me dozens of different ways.
Ever since the LDS church came out with the missionary age for men and women, I have been asked dozens and dozens of times of times, if I'm going, when I'm going, what I'm doing about school and if I'm ready.
Honestly, I know I'm supposed to go, I have had that confirmed to me.
Whether that is this Summer, next year, or when I'm 70 with my husband, I don't know.
I have been feeling overwhelmed by that lately, and I have to put it on the backburner for now and see when it's the best time for me.
So for some of you that may be curious, no, I'm not going RIGHT now.
I'm going when it's best for me.
I was tested for pre-diabetes last week and got my results from the nurse back today. Everything is healthy and clear. My glucose levels and my insulin levels are great. The nurse mentioned she was very surprised for how great they were. She thought the possibility of me being pre-diabetec was pretty high.
Everything good comes from above.
So here is another moment in my life, that I know I am watched over. I know that regardless if I was diagnosed or not, God's love and spirit would pour upon my soul.
Also, I had a great talk with one of my professors from Interior Design from last year.
She mentioned that she was so proud of me. She was proud of me that I haven't given up my passion for design. She is glad that I am pushing forward and moving on. She mentioned that she looks at me as a great student and very teachable. She said she would love to catch up more and always be there if I need a reference or any kind of help, advice, etc.
My thoughts of bitterness are slowly wiping away.
I know many of you may think that I am still extremely bitter and unhappy about my new path. But I'm sincerely not.
I know that God has put me on this new path for my own personal journey. I love you all.
There are so many things I could thank God for. Thank goodness it's the Month of Gratitude.
The biggest thing I can thank God for though, is my life. He has blessed me so many times throughout my life. Especially the past few months. He brought me out of a tough and dark time in my life and words don't describe my gratitude for Him.
I am in awe that I have found so much joy in my new path. I know many still think I am bitter. But I'm truly not. I love Graphic Design. I love my classes, the people I have met and the opportunities I'm about to embark on.
Below is a recent project I did. Our assignment was to re-invent a book cover using a collage of pictures, typography and creativity.
I went to the temple last weekend. The most peaceful place on earth. The temple is a place of meditation. It is the closest place to heaven on Earth.
The temple is where God can speak to me personally.
He reminded me that I need to slow down.
For those of you that don't know, I have felt that I need to serve a mission for my faith the past few years. Through inspiration, I was told it isn't my time to go yet and to pursue my current plans.
For those not of my faith, I know it might be hard to understand this peace I mention. But to put it simply, an apostle of my church said this:
"Can the peace the gospel brings to a faithful Latter Day Saint be transferred to an individual experiencing adversity or great challenges?
The answer is no.
You can't share your personal conversion to another. Conversion is personal."
Whatever faith you are, LDS or not. You can't truly believe in a religion that you don't have a personal conversion to. That is a concept that I am trying to understand in my life. People that want the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints in their life--will find it. They HAVE to be converted. They HAVE to put in the dedication, time and willingness.
That is something I am slowly coming to understand in my life.