do you ever feel like screaming AHHHWOELDJFIKshdgolkdfjoinghiklk?

I do.

These past few weeks have been the busiest craziest weeks of my freshman year of college.

As some of you may, or may not know...

I am applying for the Interior Design Program at USU this Friday.

It's stressful.

Scary.

Intimidating.

but...whatever happens will happen.

I've done my best, kept close to my Savior for guidance and that is all I can do.

I am turning it in tomorrow and I will post pictures of it all so you can see.

So, I'll keep you posted.

Here is a sneak peek of part of my project.

(There are 4 parts, a sketch, model, a written paper and 5 abstractions of a musical instrument of my choice---saxophone)

festival of colors

 yesterday, i went to festival of colors with a great group of friends.

we left logan around 10:30 and headed to layton at cory's house for lunch.

whose mother can make amazing homemade cinnamon rolls. (just a sidenote)

we got to the holi krishna temple around 3'ish and were there til around 6.

they dropped the chalk every 2 hours, so we had to wait til 5.

which is cool.

we saw a llama farm and peacocks on a roof.

we drenched ourselves in chalk.

& tried deciphering what the bands and singers were saying.

we're thinking they just said holi krishna 6,000 times.

if you were there, what did you hear? haha.

good times though.

it was a BLAST.

but i also realized how lucky i was to...

a) have amazing friends with great values and love to have fun.

b) for my religion and knowing what i believe is true.

c) knowing that according to the indian faith, i don't need to just say holi krishna to get to heaven.

yepppp...that's what went down.

  

life

is very very busy.

jaker 1-9

my brother hit his 16 month mark last week!

congrats jake!

see you in november, you cute thang.

okay, so maybe it's still pretty far away...

but think about this.

he'll be home in 8 fast sundays. :)

it sounds better to me.

gratitude.

i'm becoming a blog addict.

hate to say it.

but it's the bloody truth.

awh oh well. good thing i'm not addicted to drugs right? haha

sometimes it's just nice to make a gratitude list.

so many times our lives are full of stress and business that we don't have time to be thankful.

here is my gratitude list for today.

i'm grateful for sundays...to dedicate my day to my Savior.

for friends....who care about what you're going through & are willing to help you out.

for my dad....for calling me tonight JUST to see how i'm doing.

for sunday morning breakfasts....with my roommates. 

for the chance to write my brother every week....he just hit 16 MONTHS! 

for home cooked dinner.....every sunday.

for completing some of my portfolio...a huge relief.

for YOU!

for following my blog.

i really appreciate you. :)

bear lake & raspberry shakes....

oh the joys of being a college student...

the weekends are a blast!

my friend jordan and i went on a fun date tonight and i thought i'd share.

we went to chilji's for dinner. ((avocado burger+=heaven))

drove to bear lake....

and on our way, jordan thought it'd be awesome to go roll down the hills covered in snow.

yes, i'm in flip flops and no coat.

((which i would've dressed like an eskimo if i knew we would be doing this epic adventure))

so here is evidence i trekked through tons of snow:

lovely eh?

my feet were seriously on the verge of frostbite.

we ended up NOT going because my feet were already freezing.

next time!

we finally go to bear lake

((during the drive, we jammed out and when i say jammed....i mean JAAAMMMEEEDDDD))

i don't think i'll ever look at like a g6 the same.

g6 overdose.

haha.

we got the famous raspberry shakes that you have to get when you go through garden city.

and drove back.

good times. :)

how was your weekend?

the good life.

hey.

so i've been working on my portfolio to apply for my program all week.

and i worked on it for 5 hours today. kinda crazy huh?

minus that craziness, life is good here.

mother nature has been kind and hasn't given us any snow in awhile. yay!

for a random tidbit...

i tried arabic baklava last night. (thanks allia?) and to be honest...maybe one of the grossest things ever. it tasted like layers of dead skin. even though that gagged me out, i got to chill with my cousin allia last night, which was a BLAST! i love her!

oh and you know those "copy this as your status" things on facebook? well this was my sister's the other day and i wanted to share.

"The Girl you just called fat? She has been starving herself & has lost over 30lbs. The Boy you just called stupid? He has a learning disability & studies over 4hrs a night. The Girl you just called ugly? She spends hours putting makeup on hoping people will like her. The Boy you just tripped? He is abused enough at home. There's a lot more to people than you think. Put this as your status if you're against bullying."

this almost made me cry. i've really tried to never put people down or make them feel bad about themselves.

no one should be bullied, but the facts are a lot are. i am proud to say, that i have never put down those with disabilities, i worked with special needs children all through junior high and high school and they mean a lot to me. they are some of the most spiritual people you will EVER meet. i've realized those that bully others, have a low self esteem themselves. which is sad, but makes sense. okay y'all, let's all love each other and build up those around us?

 

  (special needs institute)

lucky.

today i read a blog about a girl that lost her mother...
she talked about how hard it is to not have her mother around for huge moments in her life.

here it is:

mom,

i need you so badly right now. i tossed & turned all night, much like the night you left us. mom, i don't have a home. why don't i belong anywhere? I was asked to leave this morning. I was asked to move out as soon as i can. I don't have anywhere to go. I wish i was with you. I feel so alone. No one understands. I feel like such a burden to everyone. i miss you a lot. you would understand. i'm in a lot of pain right now mom. help, please. even though you aren't here, you are still suppose to provide some aid. i'm not as independent as everyone thinks. i go through your things a lot. the day after i found out what happened, i got the last letter from you. you said, "i miss you. i'll be with you soon." where are you? you've missed a lot- proms, birthdays, my first love, but i really wish you would have been here for times like this. The times i cry & hold myself because i don't know where else to go. i don't want to grow up without you.

let me come home.

love your daughter.

whenever i read things like this, i recognize how lucky i am to have my mom.
if you were to ask me my top 5 fears, losing my mom would definitley be one of them.
she is soooo special to me.
she has been there for me my whole life. i really need to be more grateful.
my mom is wonderful.
my best friend.

take time to thank those that you love. if you have lost a family member, i hope you know that families are forever, and those family members that have passed on are watching over you.

are you a giver or taker?

story time....

my mom taught  me
.....there's givers and takers in friendships, families & relationships.

givers---give to the friendship, uplift you, gives you sincere compliments and make you a better person.

takers--suck everything out of you, feed off of your strength (whether spritually, physically, emotionally), bring you down and make you feel less than you really are.

my friend kenna and i were having one of our daily chats last night and she had to give up a friend that she cared so much about, but he was a taker, she always had to give to the friendship, build him up and keep him on track. from listening to her, it made me re-evaluate my relationships with people and make sure i am surrounding myself with givers.

mckenna drew is a great example of a giver. she is so uplifting to be around. she loves her family and is always talking about how wonderful they are. she is a great example of hard work, dedication to the gospel of jesus christ and unconditional love. i am very blessed to have her as a friend.

spring break :)

hey y'all. sorry i haven't blogged in forever.
i was on spring break last week.
some friends and i hit up cali.
crazy long car drives, price is right, walk of fame, getty museum, hollywood sign, delicous food, beach time, seeing dolphins, going to the ghetto, hitting up flea markets and a bunch of laughing, are just a few things that consisted of spring break.
 enjoy some pics. :)

                                                                holding a snake

 

shopping, of course.

being on the Price is Right!

 

                                   Having fun.                                  Seeing Mario Lopez.

blind date

dear blind date,
i hate to say it, but since you are my guineau pig for being my first blind date, you will be my stereo-type for a blind date.
you made a pretty good first impression. you were friendly and funny. but when we decided to head to the concert, i had to try and find you because you just left the apartment.
but, to my suprise you were at the car with my door open.
thank you. good move.
our conversation in the car was really good! we didn't ever get to the "questions overdose."
you were super funny and i enjoyed talking with you.
except, you kind of talked about yourself a lot, which was a turn off.
the concert was nice, you continued to talk a lot. but that was okay, because the concert was a tad on the boring side.
we talked about painting, traveling, framing art, music and other stuff, which i loved. good taste.
after the long odd concert ended we went to twizzleberry.
it was good though, and you bought, which was the gentleman in you.
we went back to old farm and played this "compatability game." such a date game to play.
so we were given a deck of cards and we drew a card with a word on it.
from our deck of cards (full of pictures and words) and we had to choose which cards would best describe that word.
his mind was so crazy that i tried to choose cards that i thought he'd choose.
no such luck.
we actually got 2nd after all..shocking!
but maybe if you could have said bye or offered to take me home after the date? for the record i don't live in old farm. i still don't think you ever got that figured out. but heck, we didn't have to have a doorstep scene, so good.
 you didnt ask my for number, which is fine. i wouldn't mind hanging out with you again, but nothing in the category  of "love" involved.

thank you for the 7-hr date.
lauren

eh random

so i don't know what to blog about...so i chose to blog about myself.

which i kinda hate doing.

i feel vain.

but whatever.

here are some things about me not a lot of people know...

if i don't work out, i'm moody and i can't get anything done.

my weakness is raw chocolate chip cookie dough from the freezer.

i need to go on a facebook fast.

i always have to have my phone with me.

i have a love for the celtics.

i easily spend 2-3 hours a day sketching.

a marriage dream

i'm not sure why i'm blogging about this but it seems to not leave my mind. at all.
i seem to have these elaborate dreams and wake up remembering so many details..
here is my first "marriage dream".........

in the dream, i was my same age, 18, and i was at this huge house with huge walls of windows.
my grandma was there and said she made this quilt for me as a wedding gift.
a wedding gift? what was going on?
i thanked my grandma but told her i wasn't getting married.
she said i was and he's a great guy.
i then was led to the backyard of this huge house into this open water with 3 men floating there.
i was asked to kiss each of them, and whichever guy i kissed "the best" would be the one i would marry.
i kissed this handsome blonde.
he was the one. (or so it seemed)
he then put a ring on my finger and it was a done deal.
the next thing i remember i was bawling. i was telling my parents i couldn't do this. i couldn't be married at 18.
i told them that i wanted a divorce.
but then i remember feeling guilty because it was a temple marriage....
i then went up to this "said husband" of mine and he told me that he didn't want to kiss me because he had a cold.
wow....weirdest night of my life.

are you odd like me and have creepy dreams?